Diary

September 28, 1998

Surgery Day

8:35 a.m.

My beautiful and eternal bride,

Hear my voice as I sing to Thee of a love transcendent. All the eons of our births have brought us to this moment on our beloved earth, to join together in a sacred seeking. This world Sri Aurobindo calls "the spirit's manifest home", we so love and admire. You know that I am with you in the most difficult and challenging times as in the days of gladness and steady progress.

But now I sing a deeper song that resonates the chords of my being, a song of healing and a call to her Light to bathe you in its cleansing radiance.

I sing too of the future and its golden hour - of those She has called and who have answered with a strong and progressive aspiration and an ever increasing consecration.

My beloved friend I sing your name to Her in grateful prayer. May the resplendence of His light suffuse thy being.

8:46 a.m.

As the knife excises the malignant force that has attacked you, so may I cut out from me all impure thought, discard with rapid force the negative suggestions that rush in, cleanse my being of ego and desire, and instill in the holy sanctuary, gratitude. Thou hast helped me greatly in this great and difficult endeavor and thy soul hast shown me your way of calmness, peace and order. I thank thee, friend and companion of these thirty years, for all thy profound and sustaining gifts. But especially, I thank Mother and Sri Aurobindo for allowing us to walk together into the light.

8:55 a.m.

I have known love, abundant and overflowing, filling the farthest corners of this being with divine light. I pray for greater illumination, the surcease of anger and impatience and the capacity to know the Divine Will at each step of the journey. May we with lighter and ever more joyous hearts purified in the flames of this ordeal, rededicate ourselves on the path.